-i write sins not tragedies.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

okayys. decided to blog now. where should i start..? feeling uber happy today. -big smiles-

okayys. had intensive chinese lessons today. yea right.. INTENSIVE. with the shitt environment i am thrown into. i reckon i gonna turn idiot feeling so pissed with the freaking class. basically, (i dont mean anything.) the class sucks. i mean with the kinda environment, how do you concentrate and study well? God bless them man. it's bad enough to be stuck with the low-pants stupid teacher. -stuck tongue out- he doesnt prepare his materials before lessons, rushes in and out during lessons. i figure he's just trying to have some free time to stuff some biscuits down his throat. he eats in class okay! i cant rely on him man. i gotta have the discipline to study myself. i want at least an A2. -prays hard-

sheesh. should be mugging now huh. but i so got the mood to blog and just express my hundred and one crap feelings here. i got back some of my results. let's see.. i need some serious planning, strategy to overcome those dumb grades, and lots and lots of oil to blast me to the finish point. God save me!!! He will.. -winks-

physics was crap. i failed a maths. expected. geog. i dunno what's wrong with me? chinese.. adding up the rest gotta kill. maths. total failure. i dont mean i FAILED.

i feel like a loser. my results are a flop. total disaster. oman.. nothing's going the right way. arghh..

anyway, i am so motivated to work hard and obtain at least an A2 for both maths. i got a maths pro to teach me huh. -smiles-

anyway. i am tired of blogging now. friendster went nuts i guess. -zonk out-
any sponsor for coffee? i need tons to mug for exams. apparently, they DONT help at all. i drank the super effect or something one and i dozed off right away man. cool huh. they prevent fatigue. bullshit. i think it's just the mind that's playing the trick. so.. make them go.."coffee helps. coffee helps."
i used to dislike coffee in the past. anywaY, though they dont help, i am kinda addicted to them these days. i like them now. especially starbucks one. the vanilla something something. try it. super soothing. flows down your oesophagus and gives you a sense of ... urmm.. it's nice lahhs. dah. i am bad at advertising and promoting products.

okay okay. shall stop here. i am so keen to "pon" tomorrow's sports day. i am not running anyway. blast the stadium. BOO! i hate school now. if not for him, i am so definite that i will be jumping off the highest building. my results SUCK. my life's upside down now. shitt everyone. byE!

all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 8:09 PM

there's a song that's inside of my soul.
it's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.
i'm awake in the infinite cold,
but you sing to me over and over and over again.

sing to me the song of the stars.
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
when it feels like my dreams are so far,
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.