Tuesday, February 08, 2005
just got back from the sec3 adventure camp just yesterday. boy! was so tired that i slept immediately after i washed up. until about 8pm. sickk.. slept for less than 5hours in total for the 3nights.
lack of sleep = listless me!
i didnt really enjoyed this camp a bit. was full of shit and life there was even more hectic than school life. in fact, i thought it was one of the worst camp ever. debrief for each day was the horrible part. we can be staying up until about 3AM or smth. gotta fight the tiredness and harsh punishments every night. or should i say every morning. turn in ard 3.45am and 4.30am on the last night. sickk. so deprived of my beauty sleep. why does hpt have to resort to punishments, punishments and punishments everytime? oh.. quit the bullshitting about building us up to become a good leader and stuff. it's dumb! excuses.. i don't see that in GB. but i do see great leaders built up WITHOUT having to punish them.
the most funny part is that.. heys! aren't leaders also servants of God? i am not implying that everyone has to be a Christian to become a leader. what i meant was isnt a leader gotta be enduring the harsh punishments and be going through thick and thin with us? OH! i am beginning to feel that hpt's a pile of shitt. SHIT..! i don't care who reads my blog manx. i am sickk. kick me outta there if you have too. anyway, i am pissed on the way things are being handled in hpt. maybe i lost my passion. who cares? always claiming that we are one big family. why are there heated arguments just because of some dumb seating arrangements? oh just purely shitt stuff. internal conflicts. been tolerating the nonsense since day1 of camp. pissed man!
if not for the motivation i received, i would just throw my red shirt on those total freaks in hpt who were like commanding us and demanding respect when i totally felt that they were abusing their dumb ass authority. anyway, handling a whole class was horribly hard. with people not cooperating and just remained silent when asked for opinions. oh man! sickk.. i broke down on the second day but there's this boy who wrote me a "jia you" stuff and i was so touched though it was on just plain foolscap. anyway, towards the last few days, the class was better and i felt better too. tiring man. handling a class alone. i got troop leaders to support me but they are always missing in action. ahh.. rubbish! flirting with guys and claimed that she's helping me to take care of the class. crap!
anyway, not gotta allow this whole dumb stuff affect my mood for CNY! okaes..yeass.. i am burnt. solid red. plastic face. disgusting me! yess.. goes along with the festive season. haha! my nose looks so fake! hahaa.. anyway, my room's not done up yet. gotta rush! and homework pile is horrendous. with tests and so many things coming up. oh wells.. take it easy. not gotta be stress over such a trivial matter. this is life..
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 2:39 PM
