-i write sins not tragedies.

Friday, January 21, 2005

a year older means more responsibilities. more challenges. more HOMEWORK! more headaches! sigh.. the homework load is totally terrifying. i sleep at 10.30pm BUT wake up at 3.30am every morning just to clear part of this hill of homework. sick. i gotta break down real soon. i cant concentrate totally on something for too long. i am easily distracted and stuff. manx. really should consider the mind skills course. yupps.

anyway, too many things have been happpening these days. sec3 adventure headaches. gb annual camp planning. and many many other stuff. i am gasping for air. sobs sobs.. i am really gotta break down real soon. i am lost. i cant help him nor can i even help myself. sobs sobs.. i needa calm myself. breathe in.. breathe out..

oh! my blog's song is gone! oh wells.. gotta find another song.

i got a real bad dream last night. i woke up to find myself sobbing with fear. i got no idea why i dreamt of something like that. something about death involving my grandma. manx! i got all freaked out and i immediately phone her early in the morning. i must have been too paranoid. seriously speaking, i reckon i might consider death if she's gone. i cant lose someone like her. no!

sigh.. i needa take life easily. all these are just a challenge. i feel God's presence and i dont see why i have to worry. He will pull me thru this ordeal.

To Everyone out there..

If life's not hard.. how can we grow to be a person of greater wisdom and true knowledge? Yes! there will be good and bad times. But why fear when our Great Lord overlooks our path, editing the flaws in life and calming us when we fear? Move out of this "camp of complaining" and give thanks to Him .Start to redeem time at hand and you shall find the true meaning of life. And no matter how awful your problems seem to entangle your life, untangle those anger, fears and whatso ever bit by bit. because these are just challenges God has set for us to overcome. He believes we can overcome them and i believe YOU can do it too! :) take care!

all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 9:16 AM

there's a song that's inside of my soul.
it's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.
i'm awake in the infinite cold,
but you sing to me over and over and over again.

sing to me the song of the stars.
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
when it feels like my dreams are so far,
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.