Friday, October 01, 2004
oOOo... Just came back from my little cousin's birthday celebration. coOL maNx. i got a bag of goodies for Children's Day. :)
anyway, Eng exams were kinda freaky. The paper was harder than before. as in the mid-yr and stuff. both paper one and two manx..My heart was like beating 100times a minute the moment i stepped onto the terror ground of a place called, presbyterian high school. kinda strange yea.. never felt like this before for any of my English papers. Maybe i wasn't sorta prepared for it. well... it's true. suppose to be having the mood for exams and studies but those things just arent in my mind now. kinda preoccupied with some thoughts though. haiz.. whatever. dumb right..! better set the right mode in me.
hmMMm.. anyway, i had a coOL time chilling out at my grams' place for my little cousin's little celebration. It brings me memories of how i used to celebrate my birthdays when i was really little. now..? not anymore!
sometimes i wished i could turn back time. to stop some things from happening. to stop the mistakes i made which really had an impact on me A LOT till now. i hate him. i truly hated him to the core. i was so naive and stupid then. he wasted my time and cheated my feelings. i wished God sorta punish him. the thought of him really generates the fury and anger in me. the hate that nothing could ever express. i just hate him whenever i recalled my past and stuff. the dirty past i held. I HATE HIM!!
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 9:14 PM