At the end
Will you hold my hand, or
perhaps walk away?
Is it dark where i am going;
perpetual night?
A sojourn in Oblivion,
drunk on guilt and regret-
Her face haunts me, how could i have...?
Oh, teach me to forget.
Fear gouges me at night,
I wake up wet with Blood
Smearing my bone-face-
I've killed myself.
Half-shadow, I linger
Hovering between earth and sky
People shudder; I am hideous
But they forget i can still cry.
After i pass, will you keep me silent
HIDE all evidence deep in the dirt
Lie about me to your children
Protect them from
my shameful SECRET?
Oh, it is dark where i am going;
perpetual night...
In the end
Will i have a friend,
or will you walk away?
I LOVE FAMINE CAMP!!!
TOON's family was great company. LOVES LOVES!
i hope to meet up with them real soon.
30hours without food = death? nah.
glad i survived it and came for it.
lessons learnt= priceless.
now. back to reality. mug mug mug. this is the only way out. stagnant or move ahead. i picked the obvious.
study hard :)
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 11:40 AM
how would i put it in words....?
it's not resentment that fills me but the sense of hopelessness and a lost of direction.
"Maybe we should focus on those who have the ability to obtain good results for us than you guys who have hopeless!"
"Your lives are ruined."
What?!?! the world is so academic-based that the education system is set up only to filter out the best or the 'elites'? or maybe it's just in singapore.
whatever it is, sometimes when negative stereotypes about your abilities pour in, it totally diminishes one's performance. i believe that everyone requires this bit of motivation and self-esteem to succeed. if you're perceived as 'hopeless', definitely your ability shrinks. how would you venture out when your future is perceived as a gloomy route? sigh...
maybe it's time to block out such stereotypes of what people labelled you as and just prove them wrong.
Easier said than done.
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 12:14 PM
On the subject of transparency in our college's achievement level, i believe we have failed. It brought my thoughts back to secondary four when we learnt this particular chapter in SS, "what makes good governance in S'pore?" One particular point brought up is transparency.
I figured it is total crap! In the attempt to regulate up-to-date information to everyone, there will definitely be information disclosed from the general public. Is that transparency? Well I couldnt say so.
I begin to believe that speeches are made to impress. White lies are told to allow human beings who have the tendency to judge hastily, to be oblivious of reality. argh. in conclusion, the world is full of hypocrisy. yucks. Scary as it seems. but yes. welcome to the world.
:(
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 10:04 PM
I could be your favourite girl (forever),
Perfectly together...
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
<3>
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 7:45 PM
REASONS WHY MY BEST FRIEND IS NOT RIGHT (in her mind)
1.she talks to imaginary friend.
2. she is in love.. with this guy by the name of wu jun or something. love love love = obsession.
other reasons but lazy to type. for me to know and you to find out. COOL. i figure she gotta kill me after reading this entry. but i know you love me still as much. HOHO.
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 12:42 PM
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Travelling I always stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the...
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 8:37 PM
why is it that God takes someone away from me each year? i've come to realise that life is brittle. something which i can never contemplate until well... yesterday? i've taken life for granted and when i lost someone, it shook me awake. haiz.
i dont know what i will do if i lose my grandma. i think it's gotta be hard for me to take it, judging that i am really really close to her and errr.. she means a lot to me. A LOT!
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say.....
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 8:49 PM
i am so gotta watch this show! rating's not very high but who cares. in the mood for some romantic films. plus louis koo is acting in it!! great great.
this is not me :(
what's wrong with the girl who's looking back at me.
i see the tears in her eyes, i feel the pain she felt.
oh this is definitely not who i used to be.
all you have to do is grin & bear it :) 9:55 PM